YAY! It's Spring Break! Time to do some cleaning, get a new attitude on life, and stop acting like everythings good!

Well, it's spring break, and I don't think that I'll be doing cleaning anytime soon, or actually acting normal. But that's ok! I guess, I don't know I just need to occupy my time for awhile.

Most recent and unexpected events have happened! I broke up with my boyfriend, and finally realized I can't juggle two guys, like i was, and be dating one. I did it all of a sudden too, on Tuesday, which is really weird for me, because normally I'll say I'll break up with him, and take a week to actually break up with him. I just did it randomly. The even more weird thing about it is. He didn't really seem that mad about it. And I even broke up with him for cheating on him. Because even if he didn't want to break up, I thought that our relationship might be saved if we have awhile to ourselves, and possibly date other people.

Obviously that night he drank 3 5ths. one of vodka, one of black velvet, and one of something else. And he passed out right away. That I feel bad for because I don't want to send him to an early grave because he either A) drowned himself in alcohole B) started doing drugs again or C) committed suicide. But obviously he made me 75% of his life. Or, at least that's what Matt, his friend said yesterday. I don't know if this is true or not.

Well, he compared me to one of his friend's ex. But, I know I'm not like her, she was a bitch, and had no feelings of guilt, which I actually have alot of feelings of guilt(damn being an empathetic) >.<

And one last thing on my whole, "boyfriend" troubles. There's another one that I love(stfu Carly)but it's my ex. I still do love him(pathetic yes, very, I know) and i love my(recent) ex that I just made my ex. So now the next question is, what do I do?

The Disturbed concert is still in pending with my parents. I don't know if I'll be able to go. Which really bums me, because I don't get to go to alot of rock concerts and I would really like to go to this one. *sighs* Damn being a minor it really sucks.

Another really great piece of information. I got a band offer, from an older band. Their Christian Rock, which really doesn't bother me, even though I'm not christian.(Currently I have no religion, I'm still trying to find one with great morals that I like) But, it really excited me, because I'm starting to get offered into bands for my skills at my bass (yay!)

Now a depression piece of information.(wow, this is a long journal entry, I need to write out my feelings more often!) I'm starting to doubt what I want to be, thanks to one of my friends. I really don't know what I want to be. I could be anything I want to be, easily. My friend says that I could run the country I'm so smart, but, I really don't know what I wanna be. I guess I'm just going through major teenage drama right now and it's upsetting my judgemental skills, and it will pass, but idk.

And the last thing that I'm going to rant on, I know this has been really long, and particularly dry for me, but it's short and about a prick that's in jazz band with me. He's starting to tred on my turf and take over my bass playing abilities, when he's been playing drums for longer than I have bass. And I'm better at the bass than he is at the drums. But I don't know, it just really bugged me that he's been trying to tell me what I've been doing wrong with my playing. >.<

Well, I'm going to go, I'm sure I've bored you guys enough with my ranting, sorry about that. Nothing really interesting has been happening. So I'll talk to you all later.

Peace